yesterday was church, ps song preached!
and everything about church was like yea, the same stuffs.
But i wanna stress on one thing, darius, THAT WAS A GOOD SHARING.
BUT! I've got something more important that i want to share.
I've been back to my sinful nature once again...
The hatred, the misery, the negativeness all coming back... and it felt terrible.
That night, i couldn't sleep well, all i thought was revenge and death.
Seriously, emo was the best word.
But God, this All Mighty God, Marvelous, WORTHY OF PRAISE LORD, came to me, and ease my heart with praise songs and those love words of His.
GOD! I THANKS YOU FOR SOFTENING MY HEART! LORD! MIGHTINESS IS DEFINITELY FROM YOU!
I wrote this is also to tell those not to worry or whatsoever.
And those who are losing their faith, remember, God always keep you in His heart, He can pour His love where-ever you are.
Really, we gotta appreciate God, no matter how hard it is to just pray everyday and communicate with Him, we have to make the utmost effort to do so.
Especially when you are breaking down, God hasn't gave up a single bit.
We always receive the second chance, and we wasted it.
But God gave more than that.
I realise it whe i was walking alone in the streets today.
I used to tell this to my friend, I brought you to church is not to let you feel restricted but to let you experience freedom from God.
But i myself let this restriction that the church gave to becoming asif that God wants to restrict me too.
God lets you see freedom, God lets you see chances.
God is our pillar of strength, wisdom and courage.
Everytime we face an obstacle, it's just sometimes when we will forget this God, and solve it the human way.
Yes, people might say without God's way it's impossible, but even when we do it in human's way, GOD WILL BLESS US BECAUSE WE STILL KEPT OUR FAITH.
But God's way will be better. Yea.
Really, today i felt peace at heart, i felt that kind of friend, intangible at reality, but tangible at heart. Such a Love, it can only be redeem by the request for His grace.
I will bring praise to this Lord, who kept helping me out.
It led me from a boy who watches pornography, fighting, being very prideful, being very idiotic, being someone who believes in righteousness into a christian, today, when i think of minor of myself yet the majority for others.
Yes, i might do eccentric things that is out of this world, but i will thank God for that change.
I felt the peace at heart man, typing all these out.
But really, i chose the path to obey this God, that's why i should keep it straight.
Though it's a eternal journey, but it keeps me running.
I was listening to Hillsongs songs today, and it touches me so much.
Honestly, i did not study today, seeking trouble heh? But in exchange, i felt God once again.
I really don't want to feel restricted in church, ...
I just want a place where i can feel God and have a place where freedom can be seen.
Nevertheless, i shouldn't feel sad or what for what's gonna happen.
Father Lord will plan it for me.
For He told me 'do what is best for you'
I thanks God for that.
Really, God, you are stronger, you are stronger, stronger than anything else in this world.
You break down this anchor in my heart, you make those sins away.
I really don't want to commit those sins again.
May it be temptations or the earthly desires, Lord, keep me away from it.
I thank you Lord.
Praise you!
God bless.